i just needed to tell someone...

the next car payment i make - the day before thanksgiving - is going to be my last car payment.

WOO HOO!

I think this is us too.

btw

It was sort of nice to hear your voice the other day. :)

wondering

are there mountaineers anymore? people who climb mountains for a living? how does one come into that profession? have all the mountains been scaled?

just curious.

i hate it

when people at work want me to do MORE work to perpetuate their laziness. it makes me want to fling poo at them.

i work for assholes.

Ha.

Reasons I love my town

I don't even know where to start. Maybe the incorrect use of the plural in the subject...or the fact that 2 copies of this 4 paged document were pinned to the bulletin board at the local laundry mat...oh, the list could go on and on...

Questions of the Day

What were some CDs that you had forgotten you had buried in your collection when you sold them? What were some that you were embarrassed to bring to the counter?

I am going to put together a CD for my friend Kim, of songs she can sing to her kid. I'm going to put a lot of Steve on there, so there is Sugar Boogers and the cover of the Shel Silverstein song that he sings sometimes...can you think of any other Steve songs that are "child friendly"? Can you think of any other awesome pop culture songs other than "Sweet Child of Mine" that would be neat to put on there as well?

musical responsibilities

There is Chuck & Crepes tonight, but I have been in bed with a headache since this morning, and it's cold and I just want to snuggle. I have 2 hours to rally.

I do.

what i like

when cute boys at the sammich shop flirt with me. it makes the waiting for 2 hours at the social security office fade into the ether. well, 95% of it.

Icy Monsta

weekend

this weekend i did nothing but watch "red dwarf", a british tv show, and now, whenever i call someone an idiot in my head, it comes out british. they're either a "git" or a "smeghead" or a "prat".

oh, there's something wrong with me.

Some day when we are rich...

Add this to the list of hippie-dippy things we can do one time when you visit...$200 Essence Portraits.

"Essence Portraits*
Watch your inner landscape unfold in brilliant colors while discovering your Spirit Guides, Angels, Animal Spirits and Soul Mates as Sofanya paints your Essence through your unique color patterns."

dangerous!

so, the new lena is windows and i can now watch netflix movies online.

i don't think i'll ever get to sleep again.

band name

handsome hair farm

its official

today is "let's treat shannon like a girl" day. by my decree. i don't want to have to change water bottles. i don't want to have to open doors. i want to be touched gently and nicely like i'm a magical unicorn.

dammit.

thank you again

I found my Jimi Hendrix hat this weekend in storage. I had forgotten about it since I didn't go to the playa this year. I really love this hat. I might start wearing it every day. Thank you again!

So I have your present, but I realize now that if you are selling everything, you probably don't even want it. So I'm thinking I should just tell you what it is, and maybe some day if you decide you want it, then you can have it, and I'll just keep it for safe keeping on my shelf as a decoration, even though I can't really use it.

friday

the best thing that happened on friday besides my leaving work early because i had a fever? when i went to the half-price books to sell a box of cds and the hipsters look at me amazed as they offer me $100 for the box of cds. they kept on saying "you've got a lot of good stuff in here". over and over and over. like i, of the clean jeans and brushed hair, was not allowed to have THAT MUCH good stuff.
i just said, "i've got 8 more boxes just like them".

i like amazing hipsters. they're funny.

fuck

I knew I missed you, but I didn't know it was this much until I sent him to get on a plane this morning to see you and I'm not getting to. That's lame. :(

I wish I was going to see where the wild things are with you. I was just thinking about it and who I want to see it with and I don't think there is anyone I feel that little kid tromp through the forest feeling with, except for you.

I love you a lot. :)

More silly marshmellows...

Stuff Hipsters Hate - Running

Running

Oh, shit—is that my motherfucking bus? Shit, shit, shit—I’m a whole fucking block away. I’ll just start walking really fast. Ah, fuck. I can’t be late again. I can’t. I’ve been fucking late the last two days and they’ll fucking fire me. It’s a stupid temp job, but still—I have to make rent this month. I can’t ask Mom and Dad to spot me again or they’ll think I’m a deadbeat. Oh, shit—this bag is so fucking heavy. Why the hell did I have to bring this fucking mammoth Philip K. Dick anthology? And my flask. Maybe I should run? Oh, fuck, I look like an idiot. I will not pump my arms like some kind of obese power walker. I will not. Hands at sides. Hands at sides. Shit! Stitch in my side, stitch in my side, stitch.in.my.side. I can’t breathe. Maybe I should stop smoking. Maybe I should stop drinking. Maybe I should, like, start exercising somehow. Oh, fuck. My feet hurt. These Vans are not made for running. Gonna stop now. Hands on knees. Breathe. Shit. Goodbye motherfucking bus. Oh, fuck that fucking job. Seems like a good day for some day-drinking. I deserve it. I fucking exercised.

ice cream

that target brand caramel salted pretzel ice cream? not worth it. it's not the salted caramel ice cream. it's not even close.

i don't recommend it. just wanted to save you the trouble and time. :)

i just put my finger on it.

dave matthews sounds like a mentally challenged person. i want to use the other word, but i'm feeling pc today.

fuck it.

dave matthews sounds like a retard. he can't enunciate words. 89% of the time, i can't understand one word he says. how did i ever like these guys?!

i just needed...

to reiterate the obvious - steve is obscenely brilliant.

sometimes you just need to hear the right amount of the right thing to realize. and sometimes that right thing is "answering machine".

my face hurts.

Prepping

Turns out, all your financial pep talk stuff may be coming into use very soon. This week I am going to a credit union to find out if I can get pre-approved to buy a car, and my uncle is hooking me up with his friend who has access to the friends and family program at one of the dealers, and I'm going to get myself a different car. I'm terrified, but I find your voice in my head constantly, and your beautiful budget laid out for me so nicely, that I'm a little less scared about it all.

I want a camera, I want a vacation, but I'm 31 and it's time to not have to worry about my car not starting every time I need it to. The past few months have been a wreck, it's time to have peace of mind in ...something.

Marshmellows

Unsubstantiated! However, one Twitterer recently twote that she "Just found out cops in Williamsburg call hipsters marshmallows because we are white and soft." Whether or not this is true, we would like to recommend that everyone use "marshmallow" going forward — it is much less amorphous than the H word.

so...

i'm beginning to realize why these "auxiliary" cds weren't on my itunes - besides the fact that i didn't have room.

i have pretty questionable taste in music sometimes. the dave matthews phase? REALLY??? can these songs BE any longer?!?! it's like he's hypnotizing me! i'm SO glad i've blacked that time out of my memory. i went to A LOT of dave matthews shows. far too many for someone who's not a frat boy stoner.
and all the fiddling. i mean, i LOVE me some fiddle, but i have, like, 14 MILLION cds of it. and the lorena mckennitt. it's bedtime music. only it's bedtYme music that will make my dream of flowing dresses, dragons, knights and kilts - marred with turkey leg stands.

oy!

geek

i am such a geek for kenneth branagh shakespeare remakes. BIGGEST GEEK EVER.

"much ado about nothing" will always be able to make me snicker.

shows

I missed watching shows with you. Do you get Showtime or just HBO?

I want my mommy.

:( I am a bad bad bad bad sick person.
Swine Flu is no joke.

flowers

i've really only been sent flowers once. they were delivered at work and it was totally unexpected and needed and perfect for that moment.
in going through my stuff to clean up, i found the card from the flowers:

shannon, i hope you feel better. i'm sorry i didn't do that thing that you wanted me to do that one night when you wanted it so bad. i'll try to do better next time.

fudge sent them. he made someone HAND-WRITE the card. and the "it" isn't to be discussed around polite company.

i thought you'd enjoy that.

one more thing

the sky over me is ORANGE right now. like bevo bled all over the sky orange. like great pumpkin orange. it's awesomely freaky!!

i tried to take pics, but i don't know how to fidget my settings so it gets the orange. it just gets yellow. :p

i've been pretty talky today.

is troy right?

is daner putting off her show until the spring??

i'm never going to see her again. :(

question for you

so, california has the whole medical marijuana thing going on, right? and you need a prescription to get it, right?
i wonder if you can put your medical pot on your 125 card and have your year's worth of pot pre-paid and taken out of your paycheck before taxes? tax-free pot.

hm.

just curious.

i now believe in the laundry monster.

i'm missing 1 pillowcase. ONE. how could i not have noticed it when i washed the sheets and folded them up? why only take one, laundry monster?

i think it lives in my closet. there are so many more tasty items it could have taken.

I realized somethings

1) Drinking makes me feel old. I am just the type to have a drink and want to go to bed. Drinking has never been a big event for me, but lately more than ever, I've just wanted to have "a" drink and sleep. When I hear songs on the radio about drinking and partying, I just think "where do these people get the energy?" and "when was I supposed to have been doing this?" This whole "party lifestyle" that I seemingly feel like I missed out on just makes me feel old and depressed at 31, but really, did I miss anything by not being "that" girl in my 20's? When we looked out the window of our hotel room last Saturday, there was a line around the block to get in the hotel ballroom to party. I thought of all the girls cold with no jackets in painful shoes waiting over an hour to get into this place where they were going to play this game that I just am not envious of. at all.

2) I think if I were going to be an alcoholic, I would drink tequila and collect really good tequilas. I have over 60 bottles of vodka in my house, and almost all of them are 3 or more years old. I obviously do not have a genetic need to drink or a problem with alcohol, there is no way I know those would last. (I just like the bottles and the neatness of collecting them.) I drink rarely and in spurts or weekends for vacations. But oh. my. god. When I drink tequila...I feel happy happy. Yay happy. Like 2 margaritas and I'm a happy girl happy. It's not the same as other alcohol. But oh tequila, for years and years...I've realized how much I enjoy that very special and different little specialness. It is weird because it is also the alcohol that most of my friends have "banned" and have the most bad memories associated with, and I have the most good associations with it. (But I've never had "that" experience with any particular alcohol to be unable to consume it in the future.)

curious

why all the loan officers i work for think i'm psychic. seriously. i'm supposed to know seller concessions n a contract that i don't have yet. i'm supposed to know about additional income that wasn't disclosed on the application that i received. and then they sass the answer to me like "i knew it, why didn't you?".

they totally don't pay me enough to turn on my psychic abilities.

cuntboogers.

random

sandra rinomato ("property virgins" on hgtv) is magic and awesome and i would want to be her when i grew up if i wanted to stay in real estate/financial services.

today's forgotten find

Trains by Ryan.
I like this song. :)

getting away

I'm thinking 3 nights Sunday-Wednesday of Thanksgiving week for my getaway. I'm thinking about this or this, but am just a little in love with the tent bungalows here.

There are no rates for this room, but I am in love with this tub.

This is another option.

Opinions?

movies

i've decided that i'm going to go see "where the wild things are" and cry my eyes out. every time i've seen an advert for it, i see it and then say, "i'm going to go see that movie and it's going to make me cry."

retrograde

is going to go out with a BANG! i think.

what an asshole.

ps - today is not the day i should have chose to stop drinking. seriously.

Oasis Rocks. ;)

have you seen this?

http://www.morrisonhotelgallery.com/

have you bought any of the Pax Am singles? I bought the first and never listened to it, I just realized I forgot.

how did that happen?

I have 15 days of vacation saved up. I think this means that I may consider taking a whole freaking week off for myself. I'm thinking, if you don't come for Thanksgiving, that I may take Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off and do some crazy hiding thing from the weekend before...and come back to the world on Friday for the Thanksgiving dinner with my friends. I wish I could think of some insanely cheap retreat where I could be away from the world for 5 days for less than $500. It may be a little cold to camp in the forest by myself for that long, but I'm sort of considering it. I could borrow Mike's warm sleeping back and his smaller tent and meditate in the forest for a few days. Fuck, if you come, we could do that too. It will just be cold, and maybe wet.

...

i took a mental health day yesterday. it feels like england in the early spring here. cool and damp. i just wanted to stay snuggled in my bed all morning. so i did. and then i walked around in the rain. in a long sleeved shirt. and i got a hot drink. it was pretty lovely.

and it didn't really help.

hormones.

It is a little bit amazing that hormones can so noticeably have an effect on things and feelings. I'm just going to try very hard to just lock myself away from people this week and block out everything in my head and body and just...hum....or something. But, it's rather interesting that bodies do this, and only girl bodies. Hmmm.

ps...

i really do work for stupid people. sometimes i just want to shake them and turn them into something useful. like a strawberry milkshake.

thinking...

i might give yoga a break for a month and focus on swimming again.

it'll be a break for my finances too. :)

blob.

I've gained 15 pounds, and it's weird, because I'm finding strange comfort in my softness and curves right now. I can look at myself and see this isn't the texture of the body I want, and I know I want to be healthy and in shape, but there is something nice about eating for 2 months straight and end up not fitting in your clothes, but really liking that you have boobs and softness. It's just strange. I don't know why I feel like I'm hugging myself. I wonder if this is another eating disorder symptom. Like those people that say that eating gives them comfort. It isn't exactly the eating that makes me feel better, but right now I feel hidden in my own skin. Anyway, I'm not sure why I'm writing this here, it was just something I wanted to share with you.

meanwhile, my boyfriend is SEXAY! I keep hoping he doesn't notice or care, but at least the girls are a bit bigger. He's whoa. 6 days a week for the last 6 weeks has done a boy well. In the past week he went from making some nice progress towards muscles to omg, where did THIS body come from?! I'm trying to not be too excited about it because I don't want him to think I wasn't turned on before, but oh. my. god. I am now.

so...

deets on the shows? good parts? bad parts? did you go to cheers?

i think i've found some focus.

Awesome.

I sort of want to put this in the right side instead of our picture.

you were right

yoga did make me feel tons better. but not better enough. blagh!

i think i'm losing my mind

i was standing at the fax machine waiting for a fax to go through holding my wallet because i was intending to go to the starbucks for a warm drink after the fax went through.
i didn't have any shoes on.

i'm not sayin' i'm just sayin'. i need a mental health year.

They was a sale in his online store.

So I got these. I'm so excited. I think there were like $35 at the show, I got them for $10 each.



YAY!

Great lines in TV history

"I'm a waitress, what the fuck are you?"
"god with horns... worship him bitches"

mr. jones by counting crows

this has to be one of the worst songs ever.

i just have to say this again

SHARON is the cutest thing ever!! oh. my. god.

"maybe i could trim your bangs?"

i love that she just wants to touch my hair.

Chart of the Day

How to pick your new favorite indie band

Why I love my town.

Spiderman rocks out on Labor Day at the wharf.

why

does it feel like i've been pms-ing all month? at least when it comes to the eating of anything that's put in front of me in mass quantities?

so...

i'm wearing white after labor day. and i wear red shoes.

does that make me a whore?

curious.

whhhhhyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Why can't it be time for me to go?
It is BEAUTIFUL outside.
I want to nap on the beach.
PAINFUL.

choices.

I'm shopping for cameras again. I can't decide. I flip flop so much. It is so hard to be responsible. I want things.

There is a teeny chance that I will put new tires on the front of my car, rinse it off and head down south for Meg's birthday, the Ramona show, and a visit with my parents. It means making choices though, so I am not sure yet. I'm sort of worried about the 'rents and their lack of return calls from this past weekend. It's annoying to worry.

I need to pay that stupid $275 ticket by the 25th too though. Boo.

seriously

i know i may sound nuts with this guy lately, but i just got the crescendo today... you HAVE to check out joel plaskett. the first one to get is his latest "three". it's a TRIPLE. ALBUM. talk about balls! and it's like fred van vactor and ryan made this canadian thing. it's gorgeous and fun.

steve's with him in canada now recording 10 songs (or so) with him for his "dreamhouse" thing. hearing this album FINALLY makes me excited to hear something steve's done/doing.

you can only get the album on amazon (or his website) because american distributors are LAME.

here. http://www.amazon.com/Three-Joel-Plaskett/dp/B001TIFPGG/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=music&qid=1251897515&sr=8-1

seriously.

thinking

i think the hot yoga made my brain leak out of my head last night. i can't think of ANYTHING and work is coming out SO SLOW. blargh!

True Blood

WTF!!!!!!
2 minutes before the end - the bed.
That is all. Let me know when you watch it.

Oh, My favorite line ever - Jason saying "I watch porn to learn stuff." or something. He's such a cute idiot.

1 episode left - preview looks...hmmm.
How did I end up liking this show at the end? I need more Eric.

link whore

If I were rich and creative, I'd order one of these for Steve with something neat on it. This is a great idea.

I couldn't help it.

I bought you a present. Now I have to figure out how to get it to you without breaking.

TweetPsych of our fearless leader

http://tweetpsych.com/?name=stevepoltz

Sensation odor?

Also - I think it's HILarious that Steve tweets like Katy Perry.

Amusing

http://gawker.com/5348888/photo-essays-of-our-time-people-of-wal+mart/gallery/

quite possibly

one of the BEST blog entries i've read. in a LONG long time.

http://redactedblog.blogspot.com/2009/08/catching-up-with-allure-have-you-fucked.html

this guy makes me laugh everyday. too bad he's so metro.

true blood

WHAT. THE. FUCK. i missed the part where jason tricks all the zombies due to a phone call, but... i can't miss anything else this season! WHOA!!

i wanna know what that thing sookie did to maryann was too!

this made me think of you

http://textsfromlastnight.com/view/51949

fuck me...

sharon is SO EFFIN' CUTE.

i just needed to say.

what'd i miss?

besides you when i was gone?

jacksonville nights

Pandora plays this album a lot, and I have not heard these songs in high frequency. I'm liking them.

um...

i'm going to san diego this weekend.

discuss?

I am a raging bitch.

Why must people fuck with me right now? Why must people be nasty little snippy bitches that are inflexible? If they had chocolate on them, I'd eat their heads.

Mercury is coming btw - Sept. 7.

one more thing

i'm doing a loan for someone who works for the Texas Beef Council. i want to know ALL ABOUT the beef council. it sounds so manly. so meaty. so texan.

so simple

yet so hilarious:

http://reasonswhyidumpedyou.blogspot.com/

yay!

i want

this:



and i want my insides to stop being weird and hot and gurgly. for DAYS i tell you. DAYS.

that boy

You know, every time I see him play, I just laugh...girls must STEAM ROLL OVER THAT MAN. *sigh* And to think about him in bed... He's a GREAT guitar player, but wow...he's just a shy passive man...who needs to find a person to help him locate the top button of his shirt.

Sweet Leaf Tea

They really should sell this in Big Gulp size.

Pandora

Who the hell are these Wilco people and why do they keep wanting to put their depressing music on my Ryan station? I'm new to this Pandora stuff, but I don't like their recommending that band so much when I keep saying thumbs down. Am I missing something? Am I supposed to like them, and they are just being insistent?

true blood...

i am starting to like eric more and more. he's awesome!

edited to add: HUNG - that new dude is just as gross as the woman i hate is. ugh. i don't know if i can deal with more gross.

Thank you...WHEEEE!

...I would have never found Matt - I wouldn't be famous!

dirty mind...

i opened up my sweet leaf tea and the cap said "all things grow with love".

i snickered. and then laughed at my mind because it's always in the gutter.

i have a 13 year old boy's sense of humor. i hope that never changes.

photo challenge: texas summer

it's hard to capture in photos the summertime here because a lot of it is about the feel of the weather closing down on you and about the smells that come with it. so, i tried. i wanted to get more, but didn't get the opportunity. i'll probably post more to the set and challenge as the summer progresses.

but weather going from 102 degrees and sunny to this in a matter of minutes is pretty awesome (there were a couple where i tried to get the sheer force of the drops, but it didn't work):



and then you see this 8 minutes later:



and to get caught walking in it is the BEST PART. this is rain you don't mind getting dumped on you. this is rain that inspires you to dance in it because it's SO REFRESHING.

hung

I HATE THAT WOMAN! the one who's his pimp. i want to shake her and strangle her and she will be the reason that i no longer watch the show when she gets to be too much for me.

take a goddamn shower already, hippie! GAH!

i'm tired.

tired of being admired. tired of love uninspired. i'm... so... tired...

i need a job where i can make my own hours and come and go as i please. don't they know i'd be so much more productive if i could do that? they've done studies, you know.

just needed a weary rant.

Oh my god - Virginia 2004

First of all...
*I* am the one with THIS photographic evidence!


And then - OMG!!!! Where did you GO?! HOW IS THIS YOU?!


And awe, it's like our first picture in love! I'm pretty sure we made out shortly after this.


This picture of you and Bill - AMAZING!

i want to take the afternoon off

and i'm trying to figger out a good excuse. help?

New Photo Challenge

You've been talking a lot about the texas summer recently, so that's your new challenge. Show me what those 2 words mean to you.

Please.

something i'm sure you have an opinion on...

what team, if any, do you think will pick up the p.r. nightmare that is michael vick?

i totally figured it out.

ok, while those pics may be from 2003, dana's first show HAD to have been in 2002 - here's why:

1. jessica did NOT go to dana's first show. dung did. i distinctly remember flying to dana's the first time with troy and having a lay-over in hotlanta and meeting up with dung there and all 3 of us flying in together and troy commenting on the trees and how it wa the first time he had ever seen fall. do you really think jessica - who had an abnormal and unjustified hatred of me - would let me go ANYWHERE alone with troy? i think no.
2. angie DID go to dana's first show - and we totally made out there.
3. i think the picture that rob has of the alleged "pre-humping" is just me re-visiting the infamous cross and letting it know that i wasn't going to molest it that time. i was too concerned with being drunk and making out with carrie.
4. jesse did NOT go to dana's first show.

these pics are from the 2nd dana show because i remember taking a week off because rain and lou's show was the following weekend and we followed that cuntie face around the northeast so we could visit rain and lou's for the first time. and i know THAT because i have the most horrid picture of steve, jesse and jesse's friend... chris?... from the night of the boston show that will never be shown to anyone. that was the first and only time i ever tasted coke. and it was TOTALLY on accident. and weird.

i KNEW i wasn't high!!

you are sofaking hot

You have ALWAYS been pretty, but WOW, seeing the pics Rob is posting from 2003 on Flickr (including the infamous cross humping) it is AMAZING to see how far you have come, and how I am so excited that we are both healthy chicks with rockin' bodies. (Actually, I just adore your cheek bones now.) You have been such the inspiration to me this year, in fact, I went back to the gym because of all your talk at Christmas. Good job babe, keep rawkin the hot yoga and swimming the laps - you're a silent push to keep up! Thanks!

Awesome

http://www.flickr.com/groups/scs/pool/

now...

nt (thinking): i'm going to have a VERY indie live music august. yay!

now...

NR (realizing): i would be very happy if i never had to go into an office for work again.
i used to not think that. i used to worry about not having a routine or a schedule. i used to worry that i wouldn't get as much human interaction as i needed. i don't think that would happen. i do not want to go in to work tomorrow. wah!