unbelievable

i can't believe how little work the other processors do here at this company. i just took over an LO from another processor and am looking at her files ad re-stacking so I knwo where everything is and:
1. THE FILES ARE A FREAKIN' MESS. seriously. i have no idea how this girl, or anyone, would be able to find anything in there.
2. they don't do ANYTHING in the system that we're supposed to use. what's the point of having a system if you don't use it?
3. they don't do anything for the underwiters. like calculating income (EASY) or putting correct taxes and insurance in the file (EARIER) or putting a correct payoff amoutn in the system (EASIEST!).

cheese and rice mary! now i know why the UWs like me as a processor. :)

man...

i got the best neighbor ever. he's so sweet and takes good care of me. he came by tonight and saw i have NOTHING on my walls and was all "gurrl, you gotta get something up on those walls." i told him that i just didn't have anything to put up. he's like "i have 3 pics that i was going to trash anyway, do you want them?" and they're not bad (not incredible) posters with AWESOME frames...
you'll love him. he's awesomely queenie and a caretaker. :) jerbear.

education?

i like this. i think you will too. it seems right up your alley. :)

none.

There is zero discipline in this day. The only thing keeping me here is the air conditioning.

pandora

the replacements station on pandora is... curious. hm.

ps - i hate how small the playlists are for the stations. i think it's 1.5 hours worth of music then it starts repeating. LAME!

this made me chuckle

i'm finding

that i don't like to be spoken to in the mornings because i don't like to have to form words. i communicate in a series of grunts and groans.

people say "don't talk to me until i've had my coffee" - i say "don't talk to me until i've listened to some music."

weird?

i'm pretty sure

you would love this.

you were the first person i thought of when i saw it.

i hate being hormonal

If I make it through this week without physically harming someone, it's going to be a miracle. It's taking serious deep breathing exercises to not unleash my wrath. Why can't people not suck?

idea.

Okay, I totally thought of what I'm going to do to his house some time. A CHOOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE STORY. He did the treasure hunt for my first birthday with him, with clues and stuff at his old house. I think I want to do an adventure where he makes choices and there are dead and different ends and he has to go back sometimes or do naughty things...what do you think?

interesting situation

ok, so i have this... situation:

let me preface this with, i LOVE our fvv. he's awesome, but i don't think i could live with him for an extended period of time, mainly because i can't live with anyone for an extended period of time.

he's been having a trouble finding a permanent place to live that he jives well with and that's easy on his pocketbook, so he's been couch-surfing for the past month or so, somedays at my place and somedays at his sister's place and somedays (when he doesn't have work) he'll go down to eugene to visit.
he has also gotten a totally sweet offer to go to yoga teacher training (someone is paying for the costs for him to go. what?! that's 10 grand!) in the spring.
i have a feeling that he's going to try couch surfing until the training in april (?!) because he likes the money he's saving by not having to pay rent.
that's all well and good and what not, but i CANNOT have him staying with me off and on until then. i would kill him. for many reasons, one of which is that he can't make a decision and stick with it. the other is that i NEED my space. and when he comes here to surf, it's not like he's just bringing in a backpack with a change of clothes and a pillow, he's bringing in 4 suitcases and a guitar, so i essentially have no living room when he's here. and it's not like i have a 4 bedroom house where he would be in the living room and i wouldn't have to see him ever. i have a TINY 1 (ish) bedroom place. you'll see it and you'll understand why i couldn't have another person living here even if we were fucking and sharing a bed.

now, i am totally thankful for what he did for me when i got here and for helping me out the way that he did and for him introducing me to his sister who helped me out way more than he did, but (and i hate to think about it this way, but...) i need to know where or when that obligation is fulfilled because if i don't draw that line, he will, unintentionally, take advantage of it and i will start to resent him because i won't know how to articulate that i feel like he's taking advantage without seeming hurtful.

if i had all the room in the world, he could stay as long as he wanted because we wouldn't have to cross paths. but i don't - i have a 450 sqft. apartment that could be considered too small for even one person if i had a "normal" amount of stuff. i have to tiptoe around when i wake up in the morning and do my morning stuff because i worry that i'm going to wake him and that makes me grumpy because it's MY FUCKING HOUSE and i shouldn't feel like i have to tiptoe! :)

and all of this comes out because he just sent an email again tonight asking if he could surf tomorrow for an indeterminate amount of time.

i said yes, but i don't know what to do or how to draw the line. what do i say? "you only have 4 more days of surfing for the rest of the year before i start saying no."?

i think i've got it

the wheat-free, gluten-free cookie recipe that is...

2/3 c. oat flour
1/2 c. wheat-free, gluten-free flour mix (like this one)
a little less than 1/4 tsp baking soda
1/8 tsp salt
1/4 tsp stevia powder
4 tbsp almond oil
2 tbsp water
1 heaping tbsp brown rice syrup
2 beaten egg yolks
1 large handful of barley sweetened chocolate chips

mix all together, refrigerate for 1 hour, bake at 350 for 12-14 minutes.

YUM.

awww...

the dragon lady is being extra super whorish this week because she knows its our last week together.
from THROWING (not kidding) files on my desk, to snide back-handed comments about "well, you're not going to be busy for too much longer" (because i'm ONLY busy with HER files), to daggers galore coming out of her eyes at me, to blaming me for any little thing she can and not paying me on her files, she's truly making our last week working together a great pleasure.

i know she's being extra mean because she's gonna miss me and she's trying to make it so i don't miss her. i'm used to that, my daddy did it before he would go out on the boat!

HAHAHAHHAAHAHA!!!

*sigh* i would like it to be monday now.

Cannonball Days

Okay, I know I must have heard this song years ago, because Gold was the first album I had of his...but I rediscovered it recently on Pandora, and I am so in love with it...I can't say why.

so....

didja watch it? i won't start talking about it until i know you have. :)

gonna do this now before i forget...

no talking about true blood until monday night after 8pm at the earliest! that's when i'll have watched it and i'll know what you're talking about. :)

do you ever have one of those days...

It has been at least a 24 hour period of continuous kicks to the gut. I am trying with all my might to try and be a big girl and an adult and keep it all together and not internalize any of these things, because none of them really has anything directly to do with me at all, but holy shit things have really blown for the last day or so. When is this mercury bullshit over? Sunday? Thank fucking god.

This week's inspiration challenge is "funny"

What would you present to a room full of people as funny and yet inspirational? (Not what I should present, but what you would present if you worked with us.)

Okay, I don't get web rankings AT ALL

Our blog - yes, this one - according to Alexa is ranked better than Steve's website almost. It's a close back and forth - we're only like 100k behind him - but last month, he was like 200k over that. Also, this blog - yes, this one - is ranked better than my photo blog that I have had for years - BY LIKE 2 MILLION PLACES. So I'm about to switch my crap over to WordPress and pay for a better chance at traffic and see if that changes anyway. But wow - I wonder if strangers read us and stuff. :) It's probably just the fact you and I visit it from different places, but weird.

dilemma

so, there's this company boat cruise on friday. we all get out of here at 11am and the cruise is from 12-3. right now, the weather is SHIT. i've rsvp'd just in case it was one of those things where, if you didn't go, you had to work, and, well, that's not the case. so now i'm wondering if i should go.
there are only a couple of people i like here, there is going to be a TON of food i can't/shouldn't eat, there are going to be people i don't like getting drunk and being even douchier and, right now, only 3 hours with these people on friday is sounding a lot more awesome than this cruise.

suggestions?

baking question

ok, so the cookies turned out... uhm, gluten, dairy and wheat-free tasting. really, the 2 problems i'm finding right now are lack of sweetness - for which i think i have a cure - and dryness, which i have no idea how to cure.

any suggestions?

the dragon lady

so, today the dragon lady at work HAD to ask me for a favor - she had no other choice - and she was a total cunt while asking me to do it and everything. and like an asshole, i helped without giving her shit about it (it would have been so easy for me to say "oh, i don't know, i'm spending a lot of time NOT CARING about my other files right now, i don't think i'll get to that today").
when i did everything i could and got it where it needed to go, i got a "thank you very much" and she had SO MUCH PAIN in her face when she said those 4 simple words and she was fumbling with her phone and didn't even look me in the face when she said it. she looked like she was pushing a large watermlon out of her body, the pain on her face.

i don't know if i should laugh or cry. but i most defnitely do not feel like working for the last 30 minutes of the day. i totally want to punch her in the cooter though.

Images

Uhm - Henry Miller? Dude, she's naked and he's playing ping pong with her.

This old one of Ian McKellan is also awesome

Hello Walken! Rawr!

is this weird?

so, i just noticed at work - well, i just put 2 and 2 together - that when other processors are out of town or something, the manager spreads all their loan officers around to the other processors to cover while they are out.
they don't do that with my loan officers. either the manager takes them or the compliance officer (who was the first processor for the company), but they don't get spread out over the other processors.

this is weird, right? this shows that no one else wants to deal with the shit i have to deal with, right? HA!

aholes.

I need your help.

I want to do something fun or neat or romantic or pranky to Mike's house for when he comes home Monday afternoon. I pick him up at the airport at 2 on Monday, but think I am going over there Sunday so I don't have to deal with holiday traffic on the hill Monday, just the rest of the bay area holiday traffic. I am going to bake him some cookies, but I want to do something else big and fun to his place.

Something like this stuff.

yeah my boyfriend needs to come home

Last night, in a fit of...desperation? I found myself with a DVR list that contained the Showtime "adult" movie - "The Devil Wears Nada". Oh yeah. I only watched 5 minutes, but wow, yeah, I'm ready for my man back if this is what I'm doing to fill in the blanks. It was super duper special in it's badness. I forgot that sometimes they try and put plots with the naked and it gets ri-donk-ulous. Yeah, I'll just stick with the get to the action variety of things. Eek.

ah santa cruz

Last night I was walking out of the gym and going to get Mexican food when this amazing 7 foot tall blonde woman walking hand in hand with this guy passed in front of me. I thought, damn, that guy is taller than me and she's super duper tall and wearing heels! I think, this reminds me of Shannon and her tallness. I walk a little faster than her and him, when I hear them talking. Yeah, I'm pretty sure she was a dude, at least at some point or in some form. That would explain the super tallness a bit more naturally. :) I didn't get a good look or anything, but she was pretty hot, and the guy was pretty normal and good looking himself. My town amuses me for these things being so normal.