why???

do i get all jittery and flushed and the anti-confident when i have to defend myself verbally and when i SO RIGHTLY ask for something that will make all lives of the people involved easier, but i know they aren't going to want to comply?!?

that email? i sent it out today. i received responses from the 2 people that i didn't need responses from. one of the other people just came up to me and tells me verbally AGAIN to do something and i asked him nicely to send me an email about it - the 2nd time today - so i can priortize it and then stated that that was why i sent out htat email this morning and it specfically asks for this to be done. then he gets all huffy with me about it because he doesn't like emails and shit (redonk, let me tell you) and i get all flustery and jittery and flushed.

i think i got my point across, but i hate that i have such a negative physical reaction to something that is GOOD for me.

DAMMIT.